How are you all? I hope you have had a good week. I am soo tired and looking forward to a big sleep this weekend. My Dad hasn't been so good and he has been in pain for the last week or so. Typical, the one week where I didn't get the chance to go visit at all, it's sods law!
He didn't tell me and I only found out at the weekend when I saw him and I had to bully him into going to see the doctor. He has had some initial tablets and then they will try to see what it is once he has finished this course. He is much better now but we still need to put a name to it and I also want him to ask for an allergy test as I think something he is eating isn't agreeing with him, as usual he is arguing that he is ok but he isn't. Plus he is my mums carer so he has to take his health a bit more seriously. I shall keep nagging until he caves in though.
So with all that is going on, I thought I would ask upstairs for guidance on what I need to know/do to help bring my Body, Mind and Spirit back into balance. I have had this phrase floating around in my ether for the past couple of weeks but it was only reading Olivia Destrades excellent blog First Earth Tarot earlier this week that reminded me of this spread.
I sat and shuffled and asked upstairs for guidance and I was given The Knight of Cups, The World and The 4 of Pentacles. Ok then...
Mind: Knight of Cups
I am too much The Knight of Cups at this time. I am moody and emotional and I can day dream for England. I have always been a day dreamer but my dreams are different now. I need to work through the mental chatter and the latent anger and get my mental equilibrium back.
I am well aware that I have not been letting things go as I should have this past couple of years. Up until a couple of years ago, I never held on to anything and it was easy, I just let everything go; but, I find it harder now and I hadn't realised just how much stuff I was holding on to.
I have started listening to a 15 minute drum meditation this week and so far I have listened to it 4 times. 3 of the times I have had feelings of rage flooding through my mind and 1 time I totally zonked out for an hour. I do not know where I went and what I was doing when I got there... I hope I was behaving.
I am going to keep listening to this meditation until I have cleared out the clutter that is blocking the light and the love.
Body: Wheel of Fortune
I have had this card 3 times now in about a week. Cycles then, well I know I am peri-menopausal (doctors default symptom checker once you hit 30) and my menstrual cycle isn't brilliant, but it never has been in the last 3 decades. There isn't much I can do to help myself there so what else must be going on? What can I affect? I suppose diet is the main thing. I don't have a bad diet and I rarely eat convenience foods (pizza is my downfall but I can't remember the last time I went out for a pizza. It was snowing, I remember that, but that still doesn't tie it down much when you live in Northern England :) ) My chap is a diabetic and coeliac so we mainly cook everything from scratch and don't eat out that often.
What has been on my mind though is an inclination for a more vegetarian diet and I am wondering if that would help. I don't eat meat everyday at all and both my chap and myself like fish. Well I think this might be the push to stop toying with it and dive in and see if that change in diet will help me to be more balanced.
Spirit: 4 of Pentacles
This is a warning indeed. I am seriously at risk of my energy stagnating. This card is advising me that I need to do the spiritual equivalent of "speculate to accumulate". I am well aware that I do not have the time to devote to Spirit that I ought and I haven't really made the effort to find the time. I would like to say I have sacrificed the housework to make the time, but I just sacrificed the housework.
I need to make a proper conscious effort to meet my spiritual needs. I have to be active and involved in my spiritual life, not just with meditation but in a daily practice otherwise I am never going to find my balance.
Well this is helpful indeed. I have firm and practical advice and guidance here so I have no excuses. Balance, here I come.
Wishing you all a wonderful weekend.
BB x
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I really like how you're working so intentionally on where you currently find yourself. A kind of 'start where you are' approach. And your drawing of the inference between your cycles and The Wheel of Fortune is an inspired one, a relevant somatic truth for you.
ReplyDeleteThank you Rose, yes I thought it would be for the best to "start where I am". Where I am is definite, so seems a more stable base. BB
DeleteI'm glad that you were finally able to do this spread for yourself! I understand balance, for sure. It's can be a tricky dance to try to maintain, and sometimes it's inevitable that we fall off of our tightrope. But somehow we always make our way back into "even space" again eventually. What I like about the Wheel is that it speaks to the natural fluctuations and rhythms of life, ever shifting and moving, and rarely ever staying completely balanced, all of the time. Still, it's good to be aware of ourselves in that way. I definitely know what you mean about housework!! I felt that way about putting the kids for naps. "Now that they're sleeping, I'll clean the house, and work on writing, etc etc etc"...and in the end I just watched TV or read. Because sometimes doing nothing feels really, really good!! :)
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